I’ve been trying to write this blog for weeks now. My head has been in a bad place for a little while, to say that I am struggling is an understatement. I have not felt like myself since Drew’s birthday. Then it seemed right after that it was the anniversary of his death. This year feels so different. So final. […]
Youngest, Middle, Oldest….
I have been trying to write this post for several months. I wanted to write about my wonderful Madison. I try not to write too much about Madi and Molly because I’m not sure how much they want out there. Molly is too young to really tell me and Madi is pretty private. We have had a year of some […]
How long ago…..
August 5, 2015 was…… 2 years 6 months 916 days 131 weeks 30 months 21,984 hours 1,319,040 minutes 79,142,400 seconds Ago. For me it feels like that Alan Jackson song “Where were you when the world stopped turning”. This is the date my world stopped turning. The date is etched deeply on my soul. I remember exactly what I was […]
One more year…..
I sit down at the computer to write and my mind wanders. It wanders to all corners that are buffered. I hide from the edges, the edges hurt. The edges of my thoughts cut right to my core. We started another year, which to a parent that has lost a child it is one more year that your child is […]
Finding Grace…..
It’s the way every memorable event happens in your life it was just regular normal Monday. You get the kids to school, yourself to work and pat yourself on the back because you did it without too many tears. That is how my Monday started. Then it all changed. I work in a law office where it is just me […]
23 Months….
I have started this blog probably a dozen times since the 5th of the month. Every time I start it I get upset and have to stop. I don’t quite know if anyone actually reads these blog posts but I do know it helps to get it out of my head. Writing these posts help with the constant swirl of […]
Unexpected winter…
Like most of of us in Santa Fe we woke up this morning with quite a snow storm going on. We had several emotions going around our house. The teenager was bummed out that this epic storm was wasted on a Saturday. A day she already had off of school. The 4 year old was excited to be able to […]