Christmas Eve

  It’s another Christmas Eve without Drew. I have been crying off and on for 3 days. I haven’t slept a full nights sleep in 3 weeks. There is no other way to describe how I feel besides broken. My heart hurts. My heart hurts for my girls, for my Mom, for Grandmother that has lost so many. My heart […]


 is celebrated on the Tuesday following Thanksgiving (in the U.S.) and the widely recognized shopping events Black Friday and Cyber Monday, #GivingTuesday kicks off the charitable season, when many focus on their holiday and end-of-year giving. I found the idea of Giving Tuesday on one of my sleepless nights researching things that could possibly help Smiles From Drew. I loved […]


Why football?

I’ve been asked the last few weeks why I would want to help support football especially for kids. I am pretty sure the people that ask me have never played nor have had children that have played youth football. I can understand the concern, when you look at the statistics of brain injury and football the numbers are staggering. Having […]

This Girl….

Drew was my first, but for the longest time Madison was my baby. She became the middle child when Molly was born and in a way she became the oldest when Drew died. She was and is so special. Drew always did a lot of activities and Madi liked things that were more low-key. It’s sometimes easy to overlook the […]

Hard Things….

Sunday May 1, 2016 is Drew Lighthall’s 21st birthday. This will be the first birthday we have to celebrate with him not here on Earth. I have been trying to prepare myself all week. I can feel my fragile wall starting to crack. I feel the tears closer and closer to the surface. I want to celebrate his life. I […]

9 Months

9 months doesn’t sound like that long of a time…that is unless you are counting down the days. 9 months is 3/4 of a year or 273.75 days or 6, 570 hours. That is how long it has been since I have seen or touched my Drew Bear. I carried him in my womb for 9 months. I have never […]